He Say - She Say

"All that ever holds somebody back, I think, is fear. For a minute I had fear. Then I went into the dressing room and shot my fear in the face.."

..We can all agree on this right? ...I mean, who, at one point in life,  hasn't been held in a headlock by fear? ...I have! ...& I'll be honest, I kinda still am. 

I've wanted to model for a long time & can remember going to Barbizon and trying out. I walked for a complete stranger and wasn't even scared. Had it not been so costly, I might've stuck with it. Years later I tried out for Top Model and did well there also, until I had to walk and speak in front of a camera in a room with almost 50 girls. I bombed. & I think after that day, I've been nervy ever since. 

I'd want to walk in school fashion shows because deep down inside I knew that I could - it's all I ever did while at home. However, I couldn't seem to get myself out there in front of everyone. I think I criticized myself to the point where I convinced myself that others shared my thoughts. Sucky, aint it?!

I'd really like to give modeling a go before I'm all shriveled up. Like, be serious and stop freaking myself out because it is in fact a personal issue. It's like I know my potential and then I forget.

Time to shake that off. ...or as Gaga would say, shoot it in the face. 

*Lock and Load*