I had to step outside of what was familiar to me.
I was beginning to feel like a corpse in the one place that gave me LIFE.
Nothing made sense. ...& not much of anything mattered. as we'd already discussed.
Fighting off the goblins of indolence.
I had to figure out why I'd become this way. No one could/would do it for me.
I left to rebuild and to find answers.
To slow down a mind that couldn't pace itself to save itself.